"It's like you're deaf to my voice,
but I've been here for every moment, waiting on your call to move.
If you could just make a choice, I know you would find me wanting only to be close to you.
You keep denying my lead!
Because I've tried, I've never pulled back my reach, and I've stayed and I've died, but you keep looking for me where I'm not.
I won't be just where you want me to be.
You've got to believe and just trust that I can be everything.
If you would just try and let me pry all your grips on worries,
I would come alive in your life and let you find the flight you're longing."

God

Midnight thought.

I swear I have insomnia...but lying in my bed trying to get to sleep as usual, I realised that this world is going to try and break me and conform me (Romans 12.2) but I have to stay true to myself and God. I may not feel good enough, but God gave me this body, this personality, this heart & mind for a reason. I, as a whole being, am made for something worthwhile and beautiful. Why should I waste who God made me to be on pointless things, junk? God has called me to a higher living, a life changed inwardly by God, a pure holy living. And its not easy to do as it is to say.
Gosh no.
I guess I'm struggling a bit with grasping this concept and putting it into action in my life.

Proust

What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Finally being Home in Heaven and finally seeing Jesus' face.

What is your greatest fear?
Losing someone I love alot.

What historical figure do you most identify with?
I'm not sure.

Which living person do you most admire?
Right now, Anja Bornman :)

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
My impatience.

What trait do you most deplore in others?
Unkindness.

What do you most dislike about your appearance?
I don't like to say, I want to be well on my way to fully accepting myself for what I look like.

What is your favorite journey?
The journey of discovery- of life lessons, of myself, of God.

What is your greatest regret?
Following what my friends were doing when I was younger.

What or who is the greatest love of your life?
God, most definitely.

When and where were you happiest?
I don't remember the date, but I remember it was the happiest phone call, and moment, of my life. I was told Hope99 raised $7,000 for abused children in Thailand.

Which talent would you most like to have?
Musical talent!

What is your current state of mind?
Impatient of myself.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
More patience.

If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?
That my mum wouldn't work so much.

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what would it be?
A bird would be lovely.

If you could choose what or who to come back as, what would it be?
A lead singer of an amazing rock band.

What do your consider your greatest achievement?
Starting up a charity with a friend of mine.

What is your most treasured possession?
I would be very sad if I lost my Bible- I've had it for a long time now.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Losing all hope.

What is your most marked characteristic?
I'd say friendly.

What is the quality you most like in a man?
Passion.

What is the quality you most admire in a woman?
Strength.

What do you most value in your friends?
Loyalty.

Who are your favourite writers?
Francine Rivers and Khaled Husseni.

Who are your heroes in real life?
Ordinary people with an amazing passion and love for God.

What are your favourite names?
Chloe and Spencer.

What is it that you most dislike?
Dishonesty, uncleanliness.

How would you like to die?
In my sleep.

What is your motto?
Love. Faith. Hope. In its deepest meaning.

The best part

...And the best part is,
I see all your flaws, your corruption, your failures, your past, your hurts, your unfaithfulness, your wordly desires and natures, your longing for sin, your weaknesses, your unloving self, your ungraceful self, your bad hair days and bad skin days, your sick days, your hungover days. I see all your anguish and stubborness, your foolishness, your pride, your selfishness and greed, your hate, your deepest innermost thoughts, and your unspeakable secrets.

I see it all.

And the best part is, despite it all,
I love you and want you and desire you. You are mine. You are beautiful to me. I died so you wouldn't die. Don't underestimate my love. I love you. I truly do.