Hey Unfaithful, Hey Graceful, Hey Unloving

Last night I felt the need to go out and think about stuff and get back on track with God.
I drove to a lookout in Manukau with my digi camera and I just sat there looking at the lights and reflected.

This year has been a hard year so far...bad news just keeps coming so fast. There have been so many deaths I know of that it makes me dizzy just to think about them. This world just wants to shake me and break me. Beauty is becoming so overrated, so shallow. I saw on the news last night that Victoria Secrets launched half a bikini to promote its new swimwear. The model wearing it had only a bikini bottom, and her breasts were covered by her hair. I love fashion, but I think that is just sad. If 'swimwear fashion' keeps going at the rate it is now, in a good years time we'll all be walking around naked with nothing but trendy cellotape stuck on our private bits. Haha lets hope not.

It's getting harder and harder to follow the narrow path that leads to life, and much more easier and appealing to follow the wide and easy road, the road that many take, but lead to hell. And I don't know about you, but the word love has lost all its meaning today. There is so much bad in the world that I feel like no good can conquer it. I know that this world is temporary, but the path ahead just seems so long and hard.

But amongst all this madness, this hurricane, stands the only person who is, and can be, the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. The never-changing anchor that is Jesus. He stands in the light beckoning each and every one of us to take off our heavy burdans, our pains, our problems, our tears, our hurts, our anguish, our self-loathing, our feelings of inadequacies, our insominia, our selfishness, our need to fit in with the world, our weariness...and just come as we are and rest in Him.

He is the only one we need to be accountable to, He is the only one we need to please. He needs to be the only one we live for, and die for, and cry for and shout in joy for. No one else, nothing else. In the end, it's between you and Him, not the world and you.

I want to encourage you. Take off your facade and know that you are not alone, but that you can face this harsh but world with the strength, grace, love and everything in between from Jesus and Jesus alone. He is enough. He can be your everything, if only you just trust Him.

"My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my fortress, I will never be shaken." Psalm 62:1-2

These are some of the photos I took while I was at the lookout. Enjoy :)

My type of man.

I want to find a man
that uses the word beautiful to describe a girl instead of hot
who knows how to keep his mouth shut and only say what he means.
A man who isn't up himself, knowing good looks are nothing without a good heart
a man who, when his heart tells him 'she's the one,' listens to it and doesn't cheat because he is scared.
A man who would risk his life for anyone he loves, especially his girl, and doesn't mind fighting for her,
a man who has pride in who he is and where he comes from, but not to the point of cockyness.
A man who doesn't use the same pick up line on everything that moves and think that it's okay,
a man that uses his heart instead of his penis
a man who loves and smiles and laughs.
A man who understands.
A man who would not even think twice about taking advantage of a drunk girl or a vulnerable girl
a man who believes with ferocity and passion that a real man does NOT rape or hit women.
A man who feels no need to complain,
a man who is humble,
a man who desires to live his life to the fullest and be something.
A man who does not instantly assume things, but believes in the best of everything and everyone,
a man who holds a strong but quiet dignity, who understands his strength but does not use it to his advantage.
A man who is not afraid to cry.
A man who does not play with too many hearts at once for his selfish reasons, but thinks of others first before himself,
a man with a passion to serve, especially the poor and needy,
and man whose motives are not driven by money or power or sex, but by love.
A man who is not flaky, but does what he says, says what he does and keeps his promises.
A man who values sex and understands it's not something to be done with any girl off the street, but that it is a powerful, scared, spiritual and beautiful thing to be shared with that special someone.
A man who does not talk trash about a girl to his friends as if she were some kind of animal, but lets his integrity direct his conversations.
An old school gentleman who opens the door for strangers, pulls out the chair for his date, gives his jacket to his girl when she is shivering, kisses on the nose and walks his girl to her door even when it is raining. And even then he'd hold out an umbrella for her because he doesn't want her to get soaked.
A man who doesn't rate girls on their appearance, who chases (and doesn't mind it) a girl for her heart and not her body,
a man who does not give up on a girl even when it seems hopeless.
A man who understands that every single woman is beautiful,
that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
A man that doesn't treat a girl according to her past, her present, her future or how he feels at that time, but treats her how she deserves to be treated- like a princess.
A man who understands that each woman is a daughter of God, and when you mess with any one of them, you're gonna have to deal with the Big Man himself.
A man who does not lead a girl on and then crush her heart, because every time that happens, that girl will find it harder to believe in true love.
Most importantly, a man who has a fierce passion and love for Jesus
and that is his first priority in life.

I think a guy like this is hard to find. But it's what makes all the frogs you've kissed, the heartbreak, the unreturned love and phone calls, the waiting and the countless rejections, the tears and the sleepless nights...all worthwhile.

"It's like you're deaf to my voice,
but I've been here for every moment, waiting on your call to move.
If you could just make a choice, I know you would find me wanting only to be close to you.
You keep denying my lead!
Because I've tried, I've never pulled back my reach, and I've stayed and I've died, but you keep looking for me where I'm not.
I won't be just where you want me to be.
You've got to believe and just trust that I can be everything.
If you would just try and let me pry all your grips on worries,
I would come alive in your life and let you find the flight you're longing."

God

Midnight thought.

I swear I have insomnia...but lying in my bed trying to get to sleep as usual, I realised that this world is going to try and break me and conform me (Romans 12.2) but I have to stay true to myself and God. I may not feel good enough, but God gave me this body, this personality, this heart & mind for a reason. I, as a whole being, am made for something worthwhile and beautiful. Why should I waste who God made me to be on pointless things, junk? God has called me to a higher living, a life changed inwardly by God, a pure holy living. And its not easy to do as it is to say.
Gosh no.
I guess I'm struggling a bit with grasping this concept and putting it into action in my life.